Friday, April 24, 2015

Mess Excess And Self Fulfilling Prophecies

You're probably expecting to see the finished jacket and it's not finished. Yesterday, I just didn't feel like sewing so I didn't. Although my breaks are typically only a couple of days versus weeks or months, I've learned that when I don't feel like it, I don't feel like it.





I okay with taking a bit of a break because the cruise collection is basically together. Along with the seven tops, I have a denim pencil skirt, a pair of jeans, some black striped pants, some black knit pants, a pair of grey twill pants, the black knit Morning skirt, and the option of either a striped denim skirt or a black and white skirt whichever I feel works better at the time. Both the optional skirts are Vogue 8499, a style I really like and wear a lot.

I came to the conclusion that if I have seven tops and will be gone for three weeks then each top needs to go with three bottoms but not with all the bottoms. That simplified things considerably and since I am getting tired of sewing for the cruise and am more than ready to move on to things that don't need to co-ordinate, I shopped my closet for the rest of the bottom garments and for the cardigans which I did think needed to go with each top and each bottom so I'll be taking three different styles, all black.





One cardigan wasn't quite in the closet. I saw it in the window of a shop on my walk yesterday and it was so close to what I was thinking of sewing that I bought the black version.





That leaves the raincoat. My friend Barb is coming to sew for a week early May so I'll start it while she's here and leave the side seams open because when I get to Ashland later in the month my friend Ute is going to help me put the pockets in using her fabulous method. Isn't her pocket a thing of beauty? I've never done anything like it so I'm looking forward to learning a new skill.





It wasn't raining yesterday morning so I walked down to Starbucks. If you enlarge the picture above, you'll see a darker brown building middle left and then a lighter tan one slightly forward and to the right. That's the Chapters bookstore and the Starbucks is in the same building. My typical walk is up and down and a bit of across. This one is down all the way there and up all the way back. That's a bit harder and I made it.

One of my studies yesterday talked about how we are most alive when we live with purpose and the other talked about self fulfilling prophecies which are when we so believe something to be true - whether it is or not  - that we act on that belief and through our actions make it true.

I see myself as winning. I run this movie through my mind thirty or forty times before each meet. When it comes time to swim, I just get in and win. - Bob Hopper

Lately I've been feeling quite overwhelmed by the situation with my husband's health. It affects me and it's totally outside of my control. All I can do is make the best choices to support my own health. All day, I contemplated ways to change my thinking that would be more beneficial, how to see a winner when I look in the mirror, what movie to run through my mind time and again, what purpose am I working toward, and other things like that. None of it can be answered in a day but if I am going to be what I think, I want to think good and positive things.





A definite sign that I'm stressed is when I start piling things on the floor. For a few weeks, I threw everything beside the sewing machine and when that pile got too big, I moved it to the guest room bed but that only worked for so long especially as I saw it every time I went in and out of the studio. Some of it was fabric that I'd pulled off the shelves and not put back and some of it was new fabric. I think my fear was that it wouldn't all fit back on the shelf so I was voiding the truth.

I mentioned a few weeks ago that when I'm dealing with something I tend to talk a lot, research endlessly, and spend money. I've been trying not to talk about the situation with my husband since it's never ending and I don't want it to dominate every conversation I have with my friends. There's no need to do further research since the answers are not going to change and that left retail therapy. I've been indulging in just a bit too much  - an excess perhaps - of fabric lately especially with the recent sales BUT... luckily the fabric all fit into the closet and unluckily - depending on how you look it - there is actually room for more... and another sale this weekend... and I'm going to get buttons... and I'm weak, weak, weak in the face of fabric. I may have to have that talk with the girl in the mirror.





For the next couple weeks, I plan to work on outfits - as in they can stand alone and don't need to co-ordinate - for the Design Outside the Lines retreat at the end of May starting with purple pants from this print fabric that I bought a couple years ago and a sleeveless top with the silk that Claire brought me back from Paris. I'm not sure if there will be enough of the silk for a longer button blouse but I want to try that style so we'll see.



 



The last time I cleaned the stash, I put aside a bunch of fabrics to over-dye including a taupe linen. In March, I threw it in a turquoise dye bath and it came out not too bad only there were a few lighter spots so yesterday I threw it back in the vat for a second dyeing. After the linen had absorbed for a while, I added a printed cotton gauze just to see what would happen. Turquoise is best left overnight so I'll finish up this morning and see if the cotton will need another dyeing. Either way, I decided if that pile was there to be over-dyed then it should be over-dyed so it could instead be there to sew with.

Hopefully the jacket will be done by Monday.

Talk soon - Myrna

Grateful
- no fabric piles

What concerns me is not the way things are, but rather the way people think they are
- Epictetus

12 comments:

  1. Myrna, cruise collection. I usually only travel with 3-4 bottom pieces. You can easily wear pants for several days before they get dirty. When picking your bottoms make sure they would be fairly quick drying should you need to hand wash. I usually pack a bar of Sunlight soap in a ziplock Baggie for washing out clothes. We went to Europe for 4 weeks and 3 was enough bottoms. If you have extra room pack t shirts and underwear extra. I often save panties that need to be thrown out to take along and then throw them out as we travel. That leaves a bit of extra room to bring home souvenirs. LOL

    Weather this trip is lovely this year. Vienna is lovely, and Prague is tomorrow.

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    1. I'll be testing my wardrobe when I'm in Oregon to see what gets worn and what wears well and what's less comfortable than I thought and need switching out. I'll pack with that info in mind. I've never been on a trip like this and I am quite possibly over-packing but this amount of clothing is what I feel comfortable with. It gives me options and I like to have those.

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  2. I really love your perspective on things. Sending good vibes to you regarding your husband; I know that must be tough.

    It is funny how there are good messes and bad messes. I can be a fury, having fun and enjoying my sewing and it's pure chaos. And then there's the kind when there's just stuff and I feel so unable to focus.

    Yesterday I did not feel like sewing and so I didn't. Initially it felt "wrong" haha but it's okay...I still don't really feel like it today but i know the mojo will return full force.

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    1. Thanks. Some days are tougher than others. Right now is quite tough.

      I can handle a certain amount of clutter and then it has to be cleaned up because as you say, I can't focus. This morning I sewed the collar on so a little mojo did appear. This is good.

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  3. Myrna, I am worried about the narrow denim skirt for your cruise. You will be doing A LOT of walking, and from the look of that skirt on your mannequin, it might be hard to keep up with your tour group in it. Even if you leave it unbuttoned on the bottom, I envision it getting in the way (picturing myself here!) while I'm taking big strides trying to keep up with the tour group. Just my 2 cents, and you know what that's worth! It's just that that skirt (being denim) might be taking up baggage weight and space that would be better taken up by things you will be more comfortable walking in. FYI, when Is took the cruise you are taking, I brought one slim black knit skirt to wear with tops for dinner. And I only wore it once.

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    1. Good thought. Thanks. My husband can't walk fast so striding is not going to happen. I'll wear the skirt around here before packing it and if I find it doesn't work, I have others I can substitute. The cruise is at the end of June until the middle of July. I like wearing skirts and don't wear shorts so I'm inclined toward more skirts. There is no fancy dress on this cruise.

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  4. Hugs for you, it must be a difficult time. Can you show us a picture of the cruise collection together?

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    1. Will do - just after I get a little break from it.

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  5. My take on the Cruise Collection is that you know what you need to feel comfortable and confident, and since you are not going to be hopping on and off trains and trekking up Alps you should take what you want! You already knew that! And I am on the edge of my chair looking forward to seeing your purple pants and your Parisian silk top! Now I'm wishing I'd grabbed another meter for you!!

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    1. Mine too and I do keep in mind that while I may be over-packing, I also only have to wheel it in and out of the Vancouver airport and otherwise the cruise line looks after it. I'm REALLY looking forward to the purple pants and that silk is divine. It shrunk slightly when I washed it so it'll be an adventure putting it together but I know I'll work it out.

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  6. I appreciate the way you are moving forward, even when it seems you are stuck - being patient with yourself. You are very strong I suspect, even when you don't notice. I am fascinated by your sewing process - I am in the process of finding my next self as well. I am sure you will enjoy your travels at a pace that works for both you and your husband.
    Sue

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    1. Being strong can get tiring at times but it definitely beats the opposite. Finding our next self. I like that phrase. Thanks.

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