When I asked for warm, somewhat stylish, and comfortable walking boots, all three sales women started to laugh. I know. It's a near impossible request and yet, that's what I wanted because I wanted to be warm, I wanted to be comfortable, and I still wanted to wear a skirt now and then. They found me...
... this low pair with a combination of leather, suede and fur trim. I needed boots because I am integrating walking with journal time and am making sure I have every opportunity for success. I have an umbrella for rain/snow and grippers for ice and a book bag that can hold these plus my wallet and I've gradually been increasing the walking distance by parking farther and farther away away from Starbucks. This week, I'm parking near Fabricland (which is another danger) and walking about 30 minutes one way, an hour in total. The weather is cold but not horribly below freezing and there's no snow on the ground meaning my resolve is far from being tested which is why...
... once a week, I wear my too tight jeans for as long as I can stand. At first, that was about twenty minutes. Yesterday, it was nine hours. This is an improvement. I have jeans in this current tight size, a size smaller, and a size smaller than that in my closet. I intend to keep trading my too tight jeans for a smaller too tight model. I must say that I have very strong and deep green envy for people whose weight never fluctuates more than a few pounds. I have no idea what that feels like. Imagine the wardrobe one could have if your weight never fluctuated. Deep. Green. Envy.
In September, when I went to my brother's wedding, I stayed with my aunt and we had a fabulous time together which is even more memorable since she had a serious stroke just a month ago and cannot be rehabilitated. She's one of my favourite people and I am feeling both devastated and motivated. We talked often and enjoyed having characteristics and interests in common... however...this is not something I want to share if I can help it. Although I am in reasonably good health, issues run in my family and her situation reminds me to take my own health more seriously.
I've realized that I like food far too much to make it the deciding factor. I cannot control my weight by diet alone. There has to be fitness in some form combined with - hopefully increasingly - healthy food choices. Walking to journalling is my start and I hope that as I see improvements - like 8 1/2 hours longer in my too tight jeans - that I'll be motivated even further.
Since the last posting, I've been paying attention to how enthused I am about creating outfits for my March holiday and whether or not the textile art ideas called to me. They did not. Instead, my mind has been bubbling over with ideas for each of the five outfits I "need" and so I've chunked down the time to figure out how to get what I want and it's a energizing and stretching goal.
I want to create five complete outfits with an upper garment, a lower garment, a layer of some kind, a statement necklace, and a bag that I create myself along with co-ordinating shoes that I may or may not need to paint. Each outfit will begin with a starting point and develop from there.
Outfit one started with the wide elastic of this ballooned hem. I chose the fabric shown earlier and yesterday, during a very quick trip into the thrift store on my way to the dentist, I found the leather shoes for $3.00. They have never been worn. There are absolutely no marks on the soles. WHAT a find and perfect for this outfit. The colour is more gold than my monitor shows and not my usual colour but perfect with the skirt and the shoes on your feet do not need to flatter your face.
SO... time wise... this chunks down into ten days per outfit. I added up all the weeks between now and the end of February leaving out March for packing and travel time and then I subtracted two weeks for Christmas and all the weekends and that left 53 days, divided by five outfits. As I said, it's a stretching goal. I'm aiming to make all new parts and pieces and at the same time I know I have some garments in my closet that can become a starting point if necessary. I'm very excited and ideas are flowing and that's a wonderful feeling.
Talk soon - Myrna
Grateful - acknowledging that I'd rather make creative everyday clothing I can wear than wall art- YES YES!